It’s Me and I Hate It

Last updated: June 2022

Narcolepsy to me is the devil. I hate it so much. It has ruined my entire life and I don’t know what I’m going to do. I find myself lost all the time. I fall asleep in parking lots, at red lights, and I sleepwalk. Denial that I can’t even talk to someone.

Searching for the right medication

I’ve been on and off medication. It’s been two years since I’ve been on the correct medication now. I was so desperate that I went online for an online doctor who prescribed me new shit. It is not helping me at all. I have public phobia so bad I barely leave my house. My 17-year-old son won’t even live here because he is so confused by my actions. I don’t sleep because I’m so afraid to be alone and sleep. I never know what I’m gonna do when I shut my eyes.

Trying to move

Right now I’m packing my stuff to move and I don’t even know where. I have to move and I will be homeless because I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I have plenty of money and I can not yet do what I need to do to find a place to live. I have two dogs and I don’t know what I’m gonna do and I just sit here doing nothing. I get lost driving down the street. I hate this disease, I hate my life, and I’m just about done with all of it. I’m alone and I have no one. What does it matter anymore? This disease has ruined me, has ruined all of me. I’m a great person and I need somewhere to sleep that you can’t wake up. I help people, I’m forgiving, loving, and funny. I have a lot to offer up.

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