Hi . In our culture, our identities and our social lives are closely tied with our careers. Giving up that career or lifelong job without other passions and other connections to help us remold ourselves can make people feel lost and depressed. Since you already suffer from depression, it is not surprising to hear that you are experiencing these symptoms. Everything can feel so out of reach, so impossible to change, but it's not. You can get better with help. Before you see a psychiatrist or therapist though (or maybe while you do), I would urge you to request a referral to a neurologist. Very often, people with one chronic health condition develop another. It would be good to rule out any neurological conditions that might be effecting your emotions and energy levels. It sounds like you don't want to feel this way, like you want to enjoy life as fully as possible. To get back that motivation, you will have to advocate for yourself and get help. It is not always easy to get appointments with psychiatrists or therapists, but It will be worth it, for sure. Please know you are far from alone. I have moderated in other communities for people with chronic illnesses for a few years now. It is not at all uncommon to feel severely depressed whether people are forced to leave their careers because of their conditions or whether their conditions impacted their expectations of retirement. Know that we are also here for you whenever you need us. Best wishes. - Lori (Team Member)